I tried it when I was very young, but it only made me feel lonely. Besides, nobody wants to taste the cum of a faggot, no even a cum-loving whore like me.
I tried it when I was very young, but it only made me feel lonely. Besides, nobody wants to taste the cum of a faggot, no even a cum-loving whore like me.
I think it’s all fucking stupid, especially when they’re simply a figurehead without real power like in England. The idea of successive generational power offends me. And living FOR FREE off the taxpayers while having no responsibilities except to come to a window occasionally and wave to the peasant is disgusting as well.
Eating spinach was something I hated when I was younger, but now I love it.
I loved football when I was younger, but as I began thinking about how the game glorifies the bigger and stronger, I started to hate it.
Yes, I think you’re over-analyzing the ass situation. And, unless you feel fine about remaining a virgin, I think you should do something about it. Just always use your head.
We don’t know what might happen in the future. He and I have talked about it. At this point, we are so very much in love with each other and the purity of our relationship. Sex feels like it might be an interference to the aspects of our relationship we love most.
But we will see how things develop. Right now we are (and have been) focused on trying to rescue him. And that is my only concern right now.
Yes, we have talked at great length about his experiences. I have cried so much just listening to him talk about it.
When he first escaped Syria, he had a lot of nightmares. But he is doing so much better now that he’s like a new person. And most incredibly – thank goodness for this – his heart somehow escaped unharmed through all of those experiences. His heart is soooo beautiful. I knew it was when I first met him, but it was buried under thick layers of sadness. Now those layers are peeling away, revealing a purity that seems impossible given his rough life.
I have never been prouder of anyone or anything like I am of him. He faced terrifying odds bravely, all the while protecting his innocent heart from harm. I love him more than any words can express.
Men have been programmed through evolution to spread their seed to as many people as they can. This instinct is very powerful, and it drives them to seek these partners and breed them.
The other part of the problem is that Men are much less romantic about sex in general than women. A Man wants to pump, dump, and leave. Part of that comes from the fact that Men are not the receptive partner in sex. Women take sex more personally because they are the ones being “violated,” which causes them to take sex more personally. A Man is just looking for a hole.
My Syrian friend.
Not one bit. He always laughs at me when I attempt to learn a word. That language is HARD!
NEVER. To me, laughter is better than sex in a relationship. Sex can mend fences when things are strained, but laughter heals and brings a lightheartedness to the relationship. In my opinion, there is nothing better than looking at your partner and watching them laugh with you. It forms a bond that is almost magical.
Take a few weeks off and then see if the problem persists. If it does after a rest period, then you might want a doctor to take a look.
Thank you for this, Sir.
Alphas release pheromones in their sweat. These chemicals act as mood modulators for those who are receptive, namely females and faggots. These chemical signals can induce sexual arousal, or obedience, or a wide variety of other submissive behaviors.
I had an Alpha friend whose wife of 10 years told me that my friend “smells so fantastic that (she) goes crazy with lust.” I agree – he smelled amazing.
So chalk it up as further proof of your Alphahood, Sir. Even your natural body odor drives subs wild and controls their brains without you lifting a finger. Now that’s power!
Thank you Sir. Yes, it’s definitely real!
I do hope you reconsider this fag’s case and allow him to service you. He sounds like he is starving for an opportunity to serve. Always remember – the fags who are truly grateful for any opportunity to serve a Man make the best servants.
Yes, a couple of them, but one in particular.
There are a lot of fags in the situation you describe.
I had my friend translate this. It reads: “I wish you and your friend happiness”
شكرا لك . أنا وصديقي نقدر كلامك .
Why doesn’t anyone say to young people: Sex is a lot of fun, just be careful. It comes with implications. Your health, your safety, your well being, your reputation. It can be explored with or without love. Do so. But when YOU decide to. Its a lot of fucking fun. Why didnt a parent or teacher ever say that to me?
Love this! It doesn’t take much to help steer a young person toward healthy sexual expression. Just honesty.
Because much of America would generally refuse to vote for them.
So nothing involving me? Yes.
No, I’m not cold and serious in real life. I have a pretty good sense of humor. And honestly, I think I’ve let my heart show on this blog quite a bit more than many other Tumblr authors.
It’s probably wrong morally, if that’s what you’re asking. But if these two Men find themselves in this predicament, what are they supposed to do? Never experience this part of their sexuality?
As Brokeback Mountain illustrated, denying this can lead to the destruction of lives. If the two Men can keep it safe, then it’s probably better to pursue it rather than ignore the urges.
Yes, Sir.If they were honest, I think many Men would agree with you.
Definitely. Fags are everywhere.
There isn’t much room on the top of a pyramid.
That’s a good technique.Also working one’s hole with dildos (possibly anal vibrators) Can help stretch your hole to the point that you can endure the size of your Alpha’s cock.
Awwww that’s wonderful, my brother! What a lovely and simple gesture from him! By doing something like that, he encourages you to continue serving him with dignity and respect. You’re obviously serving an amazing Alpha!
While enjoying a relatively quiet Sunday afternoon, I encourage everyone to watch the incredible final shot that closes Oscar contender Call Me By Your Name. It’s so brave, and so powerful. The young actor here, Timothee Chalamet, probably deserves the Oscar for Best Actor just for pulling off the range of emotions we see on his face.
This scene has haunted me since I first saw it. Give yourself over to the spell of this luminous film!
The things you describe aren’t too painful for a faggot to endure, so I would say there isn’t much wrong with it. The real ethical problem involves beating and whipping fags or causing other such forms of extreme physical and emotional pain.
Thank you, Sir.
Honestly, I was just making a joke about Alphas doing yoga. I figured there were probably Alphas doing yoga to support their workouts. Thank you for your additional perspective, Sir!
Maybe you’re just versatile. Many gays are versatile, and they don’t fall under the more extreme categories of Alpha or fag.
My two cents: someone isn’t an Alpha one time and a faggot the next.
Those are good pointers, Sir! Thank you!
Thank you Sir! One key for Alphas to remember is that Nature selected you for a special purpose. You were born superior to other Men. Accept that reality, and live accordingly.
So many drug addiction questions lately!
You need to leave him. I’m sure you understand that drug addictions can be very dangerous for the people around the addict.
At this point, you need to forget about the blackmail stuff and just get away from him. Enough is enough.
I don’t think an Alpha necessarily needs to lose his Alphahood status. I think the real question becomes when does the ALPHA feel he’s no longer an Alpha? As time moves forward, Men go through stages of emotional development. What was important to them at 20 years old is probably not as important at 40 years old. The body undergoes changes, and the confidence of some Men may be shaken.
I’ve known some incredible older Alphas in my life, and they never lost a step in retaining their Alphahood. I’ve known others who have allowed their light to dim somewhat. Everyone deals with it differently.
I despise smoking more than almost everything else. HATE IT. So it’s highly unlikely that I would be servicing a smoker at all.
I’ve never been on Reddit. However, I have lived a life on planet Earth, where the above scenario plays out every single day.
Thank you very much, Sir! Fags are often defenseless and they have low self esteem. It isn’t right to allow them to stay with an abusive Man. Hopefully some of them understand my warnings and get away from these horrible Men.
Thank you Sir!
I guess we could all agree that selfishness is probably not a good trait in anyone’s personality. However, selfishness is a TYPICAL trait of Alphas. The best Alphas temper their selfishness with a nobility and a sense of right and wrong.
I don’t know why you think this 19 year old is straight. In fact, I doubt he is straight at all. Boys at that age have wildly fluctuating sexual urges that can turn on a dime.
I’m guessing you showed the kid a picture of a model, and the kid thought he was hot enough to fuck.
As for your initial question, yes, straight Men will have gay sex under the right circumstances, namely (1) confidentiality (2) being paid for it (3) being wasted on drugs or alcohol.
Thank you, Sir. I must commend you on allowing this fag to serve you for such a long period of time. Alphas with less depth of character would’ve tossed him in the trash long ago, but clearly you are a thoughtful Man. The fag should be grateful for your kindness and mercy.
I don’t know if you have this fag performing domestic tasks (cooking, cleaning, etc.), but I assume you do. The toilet functions it provides can also be pleasurable.
Again, I’m impressed by your kindness with this faggot, Sir. I sincerely hope you do not turn away from it now.
Thank you, Sir. There is a tremendous lack of instructional blogs for Alphas.
I still think the best blog for Alphas is the legendary @str8guy4fags2serve. The blog chronicles an Alpha’s adventures and philosophies while using fags for his own pleasure and enrichment. The blog ends with the Alpha completely enslaving a very wealthy faggot. There are a lot of nuggets of wisdom in that blog.
This male serving you is a fag, Sir. It is not normal for a typical Man to want to serve another Man’s needs like this, but it is very normal for a fag to do so.
As far as sex, I’m sure this fag would love to service you that way. However, he’s afraid to upset you by making that offer to you since he knows you’re straight.
It is highly commendable on the part of this fag that he shows respect to you like this, Sir. He is giving you the worship and respect you deserve. Hopefully you will allow him to continue serving you in whatever ways you need. Thank you, Sir.
So I don’t really consider myself to be an alpha. Let’s start with what I know about myself: I’m not rich (a trait I associate with “alphas”, but I have a pretty big cock (or so I’m told). I like to fuck submissive bottom boys and I don’t bottom or suck cock, but I’m not into women at all. How’d you define me?
First of all, Sir, I want to emphasize that not all Alphas are rich (I’m not sure where you got that idea). As for the rest, you sound like a possible Alpha, but at the very least you are a dominant top Man.
I think you need to confront him about his lies. If he doesn’t have a believable excuse or attempts to push the blame off on you, then you need to rethink this situation.
You can and you should tell her. Look, you’e all she has, too. I guarantee you she would be grateful to know the truth about her son. You’re going to live with regrets when you’re older if you keep this from her, and that is an awful, inescapable feeling.
They don’t jerk off in mall restrooms because they “can’t wait until they get home.” They do it for the thrill of masturbating in a public place and the risk of getting caught by a stranger.
Many scientists claim that pubic hair helps to protect sensitive areas from infections. Also, it’s a visual cue that a person is sexually mature.
But the most compelling reason for pubic hair is the fact that it captures pheromones released by the body. These pheromones have a powerful emotional effect on others.
Yes, you should get help.
You need to cut this ex-boyfriend off completely. Do not talk to him or argue with him when he’s standing in the doorway. Don’t engage with him on social media. Every time you do talk to him, you’re adding more fuel to the fire. He will keep thinking that maybe there’s a chance with you. You need to be cruel and cut that off.
No you should not let him. In fact, you shouldn’t let him anywhere near you. Your “Alpha” is mentally and emotionally sick. Get away from him before he does something really bad.
Sir, I’m very glad that he has a friend like you to talk to about such a sensitive subject. Your friend has every reason to be nervous about his safety, of course, so it probably felt great for him to be able to confide in you.
If he does find employment elsewhere, I do hope you choose to be honest with him about your own sexuality, Sir. He trusted you, and it would be nice if you trusted him the same way. Such a revelation might help him feel less alone.
Do fags have rights?
I actively support gay rights.
First of all I follow 607 blogs.
Secondly I have never follow more than 200 blogs a day.
There is absolutely something screwy going on with Tumblr. I’ve had multiple people complain that by blog is not showing up in their feed. I asked Tumblr, and they didn’t have an answer other than “tell the reader to contact us.”
These blogs generate massive traffic and lots of money for Tumblr. Why try to kill it?
Thank you for this reminder, Sir!
You sound quite advanced for your age, Sir. That is quite impressive. I’d love to hear more about your development if you’re willing to talk. You can message me on Tumblr, or my Kik (normalsubmissive).
Thank you, Sir!
2 out 2 continued I just want to tell the other guys that it can happened and just need to accept ur self It’s hard enough to be gay and now we are saying for overweight gay guys u r not good enough for love or sex
Thank you, Sir.
In my answer to that question (here) I specifically never mentioned overweight Alphas like yourself. Like it or not, but overweight Alphas don’t usually have problems finding muscular fags to serve them. Fags respond to the inherent power of a bigger Man.
I never said that overweight fags didn’t deserve love or sex. My problem comes when an overweight fag complains that he wants a muscular stud to serve, but he doesn’t put in the work to make himself more desirable to those Men. There’s this attitude of “well, they should just accept me as I am.” That may be true in friendships or even romantic relationships, but sex and hookups don’t generally work that way.
Maybe I wasn’t nice in answering that question, but I intended it to be a cold slap to the face for the fag in the hope that he will start thinking clearly. There are a limited number of “hot muscle stud” Alphas, and everybody wants them. Competition is fierce, so either get in the game and clean yourself up, or give up the fantasy.
From this story, Sir, it sounds like this faggot is living in the closet and unwilling or unable to face the truth about himself. These types of faggots are truly starving for the opportunity to serve a Man like you, Sir. He isn’t mental, just desperate.
The opportunity you gave to him was probably like a drowning person finally getting some air. And it sounds like he put his heart and soul into that blowjob. Hopefully you will give him more opportunities to serve you, Sir!
Generally, that’s the reason. However, I think straight Men find that “girl crap” charming during the early stages of the relationship. It eventually loses its charm.
Yes, absolutely – many times. I like piss play generally, so I thought it was fun and really reinforced my submissiveness. Most of these times happened in the bathtub, but one Alpha insisted on pissing on me in the middle of my living room. I can’t tell you how many times I shampooed the carpets after that!
This boy was born and raised for the sole purpose of pleasing nigger dick. Healthy big plum ass, strong legs, sultry body shape and incredible stamina. This boy’s body was genetically engineered to become the ultimate nigger dick vessel. The wife got your back like some Pablo Escobar – Tata kinda shit. This boy will genuinely love you and deeply respect you for what you are. The wife is an extremely rare boi these days… If you find one, put a ring on it fast!
The Crazy Bitch
You can see it in his eyes and you can feel it in his incredible eagerness… This boy is crazy as in See- R- Ah-Zee- Why?. You’ve never seen anybody ride dick like he does and there is never enough. Contrary to the other boys, the crazy bitch loves to cum and when he does cum it’s like all hell brakes loose. This boy has been liberated in his mind and body by his close contact with nigger dicks. He doesn’t have an inferiority complex. The crazy bitch always pushes himself to outdo a nigger bull ergo don’t believe that just because you got it big it will suffice… If you can’t slay it good on the first time? He will never call your black ass back.
Timelessly elegant, shy, well mannered and deeply conservative. The princess is a rare flower that comes from a lineage of upstanding traditions. Do not be fooled by his detached mannerism! Behind a closed door, these bois turn into motivated ravenous whores. They can’t act slutty at all during the day so they abuse of the chance any time it shows up. Some of these bois often evolve into crazy bitches and when they do, their transformations is the most beautiful thing to see! A pure flower blooming and turning into a dark unpredictable bag of hormones.
The Hard Bitch.
Be extremely cautious of this one! The drama follows where he goes. The hard bitch is not impressed by anything and he will have no problems letting you know. He will openly tell you that your dick is too small, that you don’t fuck hard enough or that he knows someone better than you. However, do not pay attention to his tough cookie act. He won’t ask you to come by because of his pride but that bitch craves it like hell. You don’t need that complication in your life (trust me), ditch that bitch and find you some other boi.
Sex is a sport and like any sport, physical capacities are blessings that are only bestowed to the lucky one. The athletes are in for the journey. No one knows his motivation but he is determined to try the biggest nigger cocks out there. It’s not about what you look like but all about your fruit basket’s weight. This boy does not want any strings attached to his ankle when he slams his boy pussy on a giant nigger dick. Chances are you won’t hear from him anytime soon after he is done with you. He is already planning his next expedition.
Every princess dreams to grow up and if they stay on the right path, they blossom as Queens! This particular bottom moved from his shy and protected safe princess pace. He has learned a lot about himself and controlling his hunger for big nigger dicks. The queen won’t be pushed around and will ask that you that treat him like the queen that he is. On a good day, treat him good and follow the game. On a bad day, grab his wrist and rattle his cunt against a wall. Win – Win. Find him a bull that knows how to handle his bussy and you’ll have a happy wife in your hands.
The House Wrecker
DO NOT let this one near your nest, he starts fires with no lighters. The house Wrecker is a mistress of the night on a terrible mission. This boy will not rest until he makes sure that he has secured everything you have for himself. He doesn’t care about the wife and he’d like to see a queen try it with him. The house wrecker body is extremely lethal and dangerous. While the wife evolved to please his bull, this bitch chose to evolve to steal bulls. It has to be all his and nobody else. Plenty of bulls thought “It will never happen to me” but lost the fight in less than a 1 second. I am warning you! Do not underestimate this boy and if you’re a wife do not ever let this boy out of your sight. If he is around your man you can be sure that bitch is up to something.
The Milk Machine
This bitch wants your DNA buried 10 inches deep in his cunt. No if, not but and no maybe. If you were stupid enough to let him climb on top of you then goodbye. You are about to be milked dry to death and nobody will ever hear from you again.
This made me laugh. Which type of fag are you?
I bet most fags are kinkier than Alphas, Sir. Many fags have deep, intense desires for humiliation and pain. This often freaks out Alphas (particularly straight Alphas) who are not accustomed to that level of intensity.
Congratulations! Hopefully you can continue to serve him!
I have a wide array of dildos and buttplugs. I recommend these type of tools to keep your hole practiced.
Yes, it’s very important, Sir.
Well, you’re mostly right – Men are just like everybody else in that they prefer to fuck sexy, attractive bodies. Think about that.
I’m always baffled by people who say they want to have sex with “masculine, muscled, strong” Men but who are out of shape (”fat” was your word) themselves. Does that even make any sense? Why should a ripped bodybuilder lower his standards in order to have sex with a fat person?
Now, there are some Men out there who are “chubby chasers” and might prefer a fatter fag. But they aren’t easy to find. You’d be better off working on yourself and getting into better shape first, rather than expect other Men to simply accept you the way you are.
Thats a great question. I can tell you that a lot more research is necessary on the subject, and I’m devoting myself to it. Im really into science these days 🙂
Personally, I think black dick tastes different (in general) than white dick, but I can’t really describe how. That’s weird, isn’t it?
Absolutely! The kind of Alphas you describe are among the finest human beings to ever walk the planet. They are like literal versions of Superman, and they carry all of our greatest attributes and all of our most vital hopes. I have been blessed to know some of these Ultimate Alphas, and the one thing I noticed about them is how they lifted others up, rather than seek glory for themselves. They knew they were far superior to everyone around them, but they still kept in mind the needs of others.
Very good, Sir. Hopefully you decide to use the faggot someday.
You can, but I’m sure you’re surrounded by Alphas in high school/college.
Sir, I’m so sorry this is happening to you. Faggots are probably the most shallow creatures on Earth. They are forever and insatiably searching for The Next Huge Cock. Their search is neverending and quite pathetic.
You might be better off finding a submissive male with whom you can have a relationship of some kind. Then, within that relationship, you will be able to express your dominance.
Other than that, you might need to prevent yourself from projecting any insecurities about your dick. If they read insecurity on your face or in your words, they will respect you less. If you are dominant, then let these fags know who they are serving!
Yes, they love it. Not only does the choking feel pleasurable on their cock, but the fact that the cocksucker is choking on his MASSIVE COCK makes the Man feel good about himself. All Men love to feel huge and powerful, and choking reinforces that ego boost.
Aside from being born with the need to service cock, the only other “hack” I can really think of is a Man’s natural pheromones, which do cause submissive behavior in those receptive to it. I might also add that the mere act of a Man taking control and dominating fags and females turns a switch on in them and makes them submit to him.
I’m an older fag from Wisconsin. I’m writing this brief narrative in the hope
that at least one born sub/slave/fag will read it and avoid some of the
mistakes I’ve made in my life. I’m
submitting it to a number of bloggers who understand the hierarchy of men and hope
they will deem it worthy of their blog.
There’s no doubt in my mind that I was born to serve
men. At a very early age I recognized
that I was physically inferior to most of the other boys. I was drawn to the more dominant boys. I wanted to watch them and be near them even
if they were sometimes unkind to me. I
was also attracted and fascinated with masculine men. I could see that there were some men that
were more masculine, fit and dominant than most other men. Of course, at that time there was no thought
as to my sexuality or my burgeoning need to serve.
As I got older, probably late junior high, my submissive
nature started to manifest itself. I had
a tendency to offer to “help” the superior guys. It could be a project or perhaps an after
school or weekend chore. It just seemed
to be in my nature to be helpful. It
tended to be the athletes or dominant guys I was helping. I had no idea at the time I was engaging in
submissive behavior. I suspect that the
guys I was helping sometimes recognized me for what I was. Some would even make a degrading comment
about me. Regardless I was still anxious
to be “helpful.” It was also at that
time that there were occasionally guys who would recognize me for what I was
and call me out. Being called “fag” was
painful but looking back I think it was good for me in that it helped me to
start to recognize my place in the hierarchy of men.
That was also the time that I occasionally was the recipient
of some bullying. It was never severe
but it was real. I remember complaining
about it to my father one time and he told me to either do something about it
(meaning defend myself) or keep quiet. I
never complained again and simply accepted what I was subjected to. That reinforced my submissive nature and I
learned humiliation and abuse was my lot in life. Even at the time I had some admiration for the
guys who dominated me.
I hated the required gym class in high school because I
couldn’t compete with most of the other guys.
The worst part was the shower afterwards. That was when the other guys could see how
deficient I was between the legs and loved to make fun of me. It was just another aspect of myself that was
a daily reminder of my inferiority.
Later in high school, I got my first job, at a
restaurant. The submissive behavior
continued. I was “helpful” to the more
masculine guys I worked with. It
surprised me that while I was doing them a favor they would make a demeaning
comment to me. It was almost as if they
were testing how much verbal abuse they could heap on me and I’d still help
them with their work. I had something of
a momentous incident occur while I was working there. I was heading into the employee restroom one
evening. It was occupied and the door
was locked so I waited briefly. When the
door opened, out came one of the guys I really admired and was drawn to. He was muscular, good looking and had that
cocky attitude of a young Alpha. Without
acknowledging me, he went his way and I went into the restroom. I looked down and realized that he had pissed
all over the toilet seat. Without
conscious thought, I found myself on my knees next to the toilet where I
pressed my lips into a puddle of his piss as if I was in love with it. Then I licked up all of his precious piss
that he hadn’t flushed away. I couldn’t
get enough of it. Afterwards, I felt a
little ashamed of myself but at the same time if felt very right. From then on, whenever I looked at him I
thought about how I had ingested his piss and it gave me a warm feeling. I also became more submissive towards him. (It’s
pretty hard not to be submissive towards a man after you’ve swallowed his
piss.) The more submissive I was the more he seemed to enjoy demeaning me. To this day I wish I could have told him what
I had done. That incident opened my eyes
some more as to where I stood among men.
I had licked a man’s piss off a toilet seat. There was no denying that I was pretty low
After high school I still didn’t recognize that I was
engaging in submissive behavior, though I did admit to myself that I was
gay. I was still there for the men who
needed help moving, working on the house, etc.
As I look back I realize that much of my life was a continuous
succession of serving men in non-sexual ways.
I was constantly trying to please men who I subconsciously considered my
superiors. One of the men who worked at
my office owned a small farm. I offered
myself up to him and for over a year I spent most weekends “helping” him with
his farm. It was hard work too; carrying
sacks of grain, mending fences, feeding animals, etc. The worst task he assigned me was cleaning
out the pig lot. The pig shit was almost
liquid had to be pushed out with a large grain shovel. It was always splashing and there were many
times when it splashed into my mouth. So
here I was, regularly ingesting pig shit in an unconscious effort to please
this man yet I still didn’t recognize that I was engaging in submissive
behavior. I have often wondered as I
looked back, how many of the men I served recognized what I didn’t and simply
used me because it is natural for men to use fags. It was during this period that I realized
that I had developed a habit of lowering my gaze to the floor when in the
presence of real men. It was something of
a shock when I realized that I had developed this reflexive action that
signaled my submission but it shed some more light on the inferior I was.
I had an epiphany in the early (for me) days of the
internet. It was Thanksgiving Day
sometime in the eighties. I was
connected to the internet through my dial up modem. I was looking through Yahoo personals when I
came across an ad from a man who was looking for a slave. I had never heard of such a thing but was
fascinated by the notion and it had an immediate appeal to me. I read what he wrote a number of times when
it hit me, that was my purpose in
life; to serve men who were superior to me. It was life changing. That started me researching consensual
slavery and a variety of related subjects.
The more I read the more I realized they were describing me. I finally understood so much more about
myself and what had driven me for so many years. I wasn’t just gay, I was a fag. My purpose was to serve real men, to sacrifice
my time, labor, comfort, pride and anything else to make their lives easier,
happier and more comfortable. And thanks
to the internet I realized that I wasn’t alone.
There was a whole community who recognized that some are born to serve real men and we would never be complete until we were fulfilling our destiny.
So, after all these years, I finally had a real sense of my
place in the hierarchy of men and the purpose of my life. I realized that the loneliness and depression
I had experienced for so long was the result of my failure to fulfill my
purpose. So, with this new-found
realization did I make a dramatic shift in the direction of my life to start
serving something larger than myself? No.
I had always maintained a façade of the upstanding “straight” hard
working middle class man and wasn’t courageous enough to make the change that
would make my life meaningful. I did, however, make some changes. With the awareness
of my inferiority I became more submissive towards men in general. I was more courteous and made efforts to
serve in small ways but I didn’t make the dramatic shift from putting myself
first to putting superior men first. I
couldn’t purge the years of the “be a man” indoctrination, or perhaps I didn’t
want to. I had all that pride. What would people think of me if I became a
It wasn’t all failure though. I was still the “helpful” me and that still
brought some joy to my life as it was service to men. One time I was online talking to another fag
and he was telling me that he served a Master through financial tributes. I had never heard of such a thing and actually
thought it was kind of crazy. He invited
me to join him on an online exchange with his Master who was on cam. He
insisted I kneel before we start, I told him I was on my knees even though I
wasn’t. I joined the video chat and was
incredibly impressed with his Master. He
was very good looking and incredibly fit and muscular but the thing that
impressed me most was his natural confidence and dominance. The slave gave his Master $100 and thanked
his Master for accepting it. Later, I
couldn’t quit thinking about this impressive man. The next night I was online waiting for him
and this time I really was on my knees.
I will never forget the feeling as I was filling out the PayPal form to
make my first tribute. My hands were
shaking, my pulse quickened and my respiration grew shallow. When I hit “send” it made me feel almost high.
I told him what a great feeling it was to serve such a great man and thanked
him profusely. I soon thought of him as
my Master and of myself as his slave. I
had never felt such a connection to another person nor had I ever felt so
worthwhile. Here I was, sacrificing some
of my comfort to enhance the comfort of this exceptional man.
In the ensuing years I have given tens of thousands of
dollars to some extraordinary men. Money
is so vital in our world and knowing that my labors have allowed these men to get
more enjoyment from life really makes me feel better about myself. I have never regretted giving money to these
men and have always conveyed to them that I consider it an honor to serve them
in this way and always thank them for allowing me to serve.
While one might think I was fulfilling my purpose in serving
these men financially. That is only
partially correct. The thing is, I never
truly sacrificed. I only gave these men
money after my needs and comforts were met.
A real fag/slave/sub has an inherent obligation to sacrifice for the
benefit of the Alpha Male. I always put
myself first and that is a profound failure on my part. I have always felt a little ashamed of myself
for my failure to really sacrifice the way a fag should.
Another big failure of my life was that I never took a real
risk and offered myself up to an Alpha Male.
Finding a man to serve requires that a fag take risks and open himself
up to humiliation. I never really did
that. So I never attained that ultimate
fag goal, to live a life of service to an Alpha Male; to worship him that the
way that he deserves and craves. My life
would have meant much more if I had really dedicated myself to his comfort and well-being. To relieve a real man of the
mundane chores of life that are beneath him, things like cooking, cleaning, shopping,
etc. would have really fulfilled my purpose rather than the hiding behind a
computer screen and sending my spare cash.
I am in my sixties now.
I am a fag. My place has always
been at the bottom of the male hierarchy and my purpose has always been to
serve superior men. I have achieved only
limited success at fulfilling that purpose.
The greatest regret of my life is that I never truly embraced my true
purpose and selflessly devoted myself to service to the Alpha Male.
To the young fags out there, you know who you are. I encourage you to avoid the mistakes I have
made and accept who you are and what your purpose is. And to the young Alphas, embrace your greatness
and superiority. There are many fags who
want serve you and make your life more comfortable. You are doing them a favor by allowing them
to serve you. All you have to do is take
what is rightfully yours.
This is a thoughtful essay about the importance of embracing our true nature.
I don’t really think it’s possible. You’re always going to crawling back to “faggot behavior” eventually.
Yes, when it comes to owning faggots.
I’m not sure – there are too many balls in motion right now. But things are moving in a positive direction.
No. Funny is funny. I don’t get hung up on PC bullshit.
I completely agree. When a Man sees another male kneeling before him, there is an instinctual rush of dominance that comes over the Man. Kneeling was one of the primary ways Home Depot fag was able to seduce his straight Alpha. The act feeds directly into a Man’s ego, makes him feel powerful, and stimulates his dominance.