I get a fair amount of messages every day from various corners of the world. Sometimes I’m fed stories that are too good to be true and turn out to be exactly that – a time waster. But every so often I encounter a story that really floors me, and it turns out to be accurate. Sometimes heartbreakingly so.
The following story was related to me by a faggot named Tau. I’m piecing the account together into chronological order from multiple emails.
In late 2018 a guy I knew for years in my community (I live in Fullerton, CA) hit me on Grindr. He was straight. It started with blow jobs, but I sensed he wanted to be aggressive and didn’t know how much I could handle.
I was afraid at first that I would go to far with my submissive behavior and scare him off. I had him sit down in my recliner, took his shoes off, asked if he wanted any porn cast on my TV (he said no surprisingly).
I got a hail of compliments about my cocksucking skills, some probably loud enough for the neighbors to hear. Surprisingly, he didn’t mind me having control sometimes. Probably because if he let me do my thing he would nut harder than he ever had in his life. I don’t think he had ever had his dick sucked that good in his life (which is a pity).
Anyway, the second time he came over to get his dick sucked (the day after the first time – haha) I just sensed something. I’m not sure what it was. I was on all fours on the bed and sucking him while he stood. I asked him if he wanted me to lie back with my head off the bed and let him fuck my throat. The only thing that came out of his mouth was “are you sure?” So, I was correct.
From there it escalated throughout 2019. Face slaps, joking, punches to solar plexus, punches to flank in doggy style. It was terrifying and frequently painful, but I loved it and I loved seeing him become such a beast. And when he wasn’t fucking me doggy style and striking me in the sides for whimpering too much, he was actually a decent guy. Stoic but had a nice smile, chiseled out, sexually impulsive and impatient, but I’d usually get a “you good?” once he was done and I was laying in a heap in the bed (or on whatever surface I was fucked on).
He wasn’t an alpha in a gregarious or expressive way. He was quiet. His eyes were very fierce for an Asian guy. You can look in my eyes and they look kind of soft and doe like. His were more piercing. He was probably more expressive with his bros. I never saw that part of his life but I knew it existed. I remember him being kind of jock-like in high school. I think the appeal for a faggot like me is to make him feel more at ease and in control of a situation. You want to do something that makes his serious, unimpressed look turn into one more pleased. It was my fulfillment.
Unfortunately, his girlfriend found recordings he made of us. I didn’t know he was recording it. I was actually kind of flattered by that in a sick way. He’s deleted all social media and changed his phone number. He moved across country disgraced. I’m seen as some kind of terrible person and (at least for now) my family won’t even speak to me.
Yet another account of a straight Alpha venturing outside his comfort zone for some way to express his power and finding it with a faggot!
Tau was brave to allow himself to be pulverized and brutalized by the fury and rage of this straight Alpha.
I had no idea it would end like this. I don’t know what possessed me to get him to do those things to me. He could be downright terrifying when he was raging horny. One of my gay friends saw me one morning after he came over and I thought he was going to call the police.
I haven’t as much as sucked a dick since the fall out of his girlfriend finding the videos. I would never say he was my boyfriend or anything but there were some softer moments between us in private. Over the course of they year I never felt like anything was missing or that I wanted more from it, especially if he would sleep over. I never wanted to have a larger role in his life than I had.
You can hear the wistfulness and tender sadness in Tau’s words, can’t you?
This is the danger every faggot faces when choosing to serve straight Alphas. Heartbreak. Disappointment. Our feelings so easily entangle in ways they never should, ways that cannot be reciprocated by a Man programmed to fuck us, but not fall in love with us.
Serve with all of your heart, faggots, but keep it under lock and key!