After accepting my homosexuality in my teen years, I quickly realized that I was submissive. I never had an interest in the release most males crave in a sexual encounter. Receiving a blow job was uncomfortable and embarrassing. I refused to touch myself while servicing a man. The very thought of attempting to fuck a man disgusted me.
My innate desire to serve led me to several Alpha males throughout my life. Not all of these relationships were entirely sexual, but all of them involved a dynamic in which I was their property to be used in whatever way they saw fit. At first this fulfilled a certain need within me, but through their instruction and and grooming this need turned into an intense desire to be owned by Men. To serve Men.
In the gay community, the word “fag” is an insult tainted by hate-filled memories. And, In most uses, this word is meant as an insult. Straight men have long used the term “fag” or “faggot” to reinforce the social idea that gay Men are lesser or inferior to straight Men.This is untrue, of course; there are many gay men who have self esteem and yearn for the kind of success in business and romance that any other Man desires. These gay Men are simply Men who are attracted to other Men, but Men nonetheless.
But there are people like me who, for whatever reason, have an intense desire to serve a Man. We recognize the superiority of Men – their power, their confidence, their ambition – and we recognize our own deficiencies. This goes beyond sexual, into the realm of ultimate surrender to the whims and desires of another, superior Man.
For such a person, the word “faggot” is most appropriate. When we are called a “faggot” by a Man, we realize that He is recognizing our inferior station in comparison to Him. When he calls us a “faggot,” He is telling us that we must either submit to Him or be destroyed by Him. It is a word rich with meaning in the dynamic between Alpha males and those who worship them.
At one time, I was simply a submissive gay male. Through use, training, and observation, Alpha males have revealed to me that I am, indeed, a faggot. And once I embraced that, I have been made more useful to Men and my happiness has increased exponentially.
It’s the confidence of your Alpha that attracts you. He could give a fuck about you or your needs. Feel your top fill your cunt, watch as he gets into the rut of the fuck. If you need to scream, cry, push back, try to escape, do it. It will just make him fuck you harder. Nature.
Feel his thrust. His power. Ouch. Umph. God yes. You’re now becoming numb. You are his morning workout. Watch him sweat. Feel it on you. Hear him grunt, breath and fuck. You are nothing but a faggot here to Serve Him.
Just like this. Every fucking time. Just like this.