Many atheists start to be more open to the idea of some kind of faith as they get older and approach death. It is astounding to me that you went through cancer without even giving religion a second thought. I wish I was like you. The concept of organized religion makes me sick but I find myself envious of religious people sometimes. It comforts them. They have something to lean on when times are rough. Us, the tortured kind, have so little comforts. Be well.

I guess I tend to look at it this way: a fake hope isn’t hope. Lies are not comforting. 

I never feared death for my own sake. I just couldn’t leave Baby Boy alone in this world. I wept only because of that possibility.