Hi. im not sure this is the right way to ask this. I am a college student enjoying a semester abroad. Its to a country that is friendly toward Americans but very different. I am a young gay male and I would have said I was comfortable with myself. I have had two long term relationships. Okay. My questions. Since I have been here my studies have slipped. I have met a number of men (married) and its been mostly about sex. The cocks are big and uncut. Im basically on call. What has happened?? Help.
This often happens when a young gay Male steps out of his comfort zone for the first time. College was like that for me, too. I never drank, smoked (or even cussed) during high school, but I did a complete 180 degree turn in college. By that point I had a good taste of dick in my mouth, and proceeded to become a ravenous whore faggot during those college years. I suspect you’re going through the same thing or similar.
But keep in mind – these married foreign Men are using you like a faggot. You are their cumdump, their servant. And you seem to like it.
Personally, I think you have discovered a truth about yourself. I think you were born a faggot and are meant to be owned by Men. This reality has been hidden from you because you had the good fortune of getting into two long-term relationships. Now the fag animal inside has been freed.
Don’t be scared! It’s tough enough to be honest with oneself about simple matters, let alone major aspects of our being!
Just breathe. You’ll be fine, brother!