So my boyfriend wanted to fuck my ass and I’m terrified because I had an anal fissure once and that did hurt like hell for months!!! I’m afraid that will happen again when he fucks my tight hole. He tried today with a lot of lube and he was really patient. He first fingered my hole, which felt so weird and I didn’t like feeling his finger nail inside. Then he tried to push his cock in and I begged him to go slowly, what he did. He got his tip in, then I begged him to stop (though it didn’t hurt that much, but in my head was that fucking anal fissure and the pain it caused. I want him to fuck my ass. How can I overcome my fear?
I can appreciate your concern, brother. Anal fissures (small tears in the mucosa around the anus) can be extremely painful, and they take a long time to heal.
However, once they are healed, you should be back to normal. Having one episode with an anal fissure doesn’t curse you for the rest of your life. You CAN get fucked without any problems!
It sounds like you have a terrific boyfriend, brother. He was trying to go easy with you, and I think he probably could’ve fucked you without problems if you could’ve gotten over your somewhat irrational fears.
Here’s what I think you need to do: get a nice dildo (or even better, a vibrator!) and work your hole. Get accustomed to having something in there opening you up. You need to get your mind right about this.
Unless your boyfriend has a King Kong dong, plenty of lube and a bit of care should yield terrific results. You gotta let it happen.