I’ve dealt with more bad faggot decision-making experiences than I EVER expected when I started this site. It’s FILLED with such stories of faggots being stupid and letting a great Alpha get away.
Here’s another one, but this time with a twist.
A couple of weeks ago I received this email from Dany, a faggot living in Brazil.
Hi Sam. My name is Dany, and I’m a 26yo faggot from Brazil.
I’ve been gathering up courage to write this for a while. I’m still a little scared. I never told this story to anyone. It’s about the first contact I had with an alpha.
Well, actually I already knew him. We were classmates in high school. We didn’t interact much, but at that point, he was openly gay (out and proud but not effeminate), and I was still figuring myself out. I’ve always been shy and nerdy. I used to be a lot shyer, but there’s still a lot of room for improvement. In my late teens and early 20s, I’ve been getting more in touch with my subby side, and loving every second of it.
Sometime around 2016, I was browsing tinder and I found this manly looking guy who happens to have studied in the same high school as I did. I hoped this common point could start up a conversation. Guess who it was? I hadn’t recognized him. He grew a beard, and looked incredibly manly (I can’t grow a beard lol). I was excited at first, trying to catch up on life and all. He just calmly ignored all my questions and said “I always knew you were a little faggot”. At that moment, my heart skipped a beat and shivers ran down my spine. No one had ever talked to me like that. I never felt so nervous and scared. And horny, almost like he triggered something in me. He then asked what I was into, and I said I was exploring my subby side and all. He then started to assert himself as a man saying he was into rough sex and was looking for a little bitch to ravage, yes he called me his bitch. Every time he talked to me in a degrading way like that, I felt more nervous, horny and submissive.
Eventually I just told him that all I wanted was a real man to dominate me. He said he knew exactly what I wanted, that he’d fill my pussy to the brim, and he’d turn me into his needy slutty girl as soon as we met. I begged for it like a good girl, I begged him to fuck my pussy and do whatever he wants to it. At this point I was furiously masturbating and came soon after.
And then post nut clarity hit me like a train wreck. “What the fuck was I doing?!?!” I never referred to my anus as a pussy before he called it a pussy. And it felt so right at the moment. I was confused, like he was messing with my head (now I know, he was). I came up with some excuse to end the conversation and left.
A couple days later, he hit me up. This time, he wanted to bring me somewhere. I didn’t know where, but he said he knew what was best for me. That turned me on, but this time my fear won out and I freaked out. I started pushing back saying we should slow things down, but he insisted, saying I would love what he had in store, that he would make me his breeding female. That turned me on even more but I kept pushing back and eventually he just said “ok then”. He tried again a couple days later, but to no avail. I had made up my mind.
It didn’t take long for me to realize the mistake I’ve made. He wasn’t a stranger. I knew he wasn’t some kind of psycho. But my anxiety took the best of me. Years later, I found your blog, and everything became clear. What I was, what he was, but I still don’t know how to fix that. How do I start over? Apparently he’s engaged now and moved to another country, but visits regularly. Do I even have a chance?
Boy, I was DESTROYED when I read this! What a tragedy! I wasn’t kind in my response:
This is HEARTBREAKING. You had the most incredible stroke of luck in history, and you wasted it!
I would say that this situation is not over. If you have the ability to contact him, then you can probably get him interested in using you when he’s in town. HOWEVER, now you will likely just be a hole he uses occasionally rather than his owned faggot. You allowed him to get away and make a new life and plans that no longer include you.
Boy, this is crushing. You had this powerful Alpha pursuing you, and you pushed him away. What a disaster.
Get to work tracking this guy down and respectfully reconnecting with him. Apologize to him for not fully accepting your faghood.
I hope this works. I hate to see anybody fail this spectacularly. GET TO WORK!
I had ZERO hope that any of this would work. ZERO. I felt Dany had basically destroyed his chance, and even if Dany worked up the courage to actually do what I suggested, it would be nothing more than a “hail Mary” attempt at an impossible outcome.
But what do you know? I received a follow-up email from Dany over the weekend, and it has miraculously been recovered:
I don’t know what to say! Everything went way better than expected! First of all, before reconnecting with him, I seriously considered not doing it at all because, as you said, I would probably not be his owned fag, and I really wanted an Alpha to own me. So I thought, “maybe I should just move on”, afterall, there’s plenty of fish in the sea right? But who am I kidding, I really wanted to serve him. At this point, I felt like I owed him. Also, I had to bring my facebook back to life just to get his contact information, and when I re-read our last conversation, it actually happened less than a year ago, instead of 2016. I was like “WTF I felt like it’s been at least 4 years” (I’ve been thinking about that wasted opportunity almost once a week for this whole time, that probably warped my perception of time). But I digress.
I first sent him a message saying I was really sorry for not serving him last time. I tried to be as polite as possible and tell him I hadn’t fully accepted my faghood at that time, but now I was ready to serve. I also linked this article of yours: https://fagsworshipalphas.com/the-fear-of-service/. Apparently he read it and then he said “Well, let’s see if you’ve really learned”. And then started giving me orders like “get on your knees and finger your ass” “shove your dildo up your ass, and make a video”. And I, of course, did everything I was told like a good bitch <3. He then asked me about what highschool friends I’d have fucked back then, and to explain in detail why I would. Well, I never felt horny for any of them, but he did end up unearthing some obscure memories of the boys treating me as if they were my Alpha, in non sexual contexts, and me pushing back. I told him it made me upset back then, but it also made me feel something that I didn’t quite understand (he was quite insistent on getting that information from me. I didn’t really understand why. Do you have a guess?). He then continued to make me ravage my own hole using my fingers and toys, and record it all for him. He then told me my moans weren’t slutty enough, and ordered me to higher the pitch of my voice. I was in sub heaven at that point. Then he told me to record an audio saying I was his little bitch in my sluttiest voice while shoving my toys up my ass. Needless to say I loved every second of it.
To finish it off, he told me to open my mouth as if he was gonna use me as his toilet. It was awesome.
He said he enjoyed talking to me (that’s all I ever wanted to hear). And he wanted me to buy a buttplug that I could use for hours, and a jockstrap, because he didn’t want to see my cock and balls while I served him. I didn’t mention I had a huge chastity fetish. I’m not even sure he knows what it is. Maybe I should try to introduce him to it?
Before going to sleep, he said he didn’t know when he was coming back to Brazil (he’s in Portugal btw) so he hoped I could find an alpha here in Brazil. And always use condoms hihihihi. That was so sweet of him <3. Later we’ll talk more about how life’s been going and maybe I could serve his husband as well? Who knows?
Thanks Sam, for pushing me in the right direction. I’d have missed it if it wasn’t for that. Again, sorry for any grammar mistakes. It all happened just an hour ago my mind is kinda hazy lol.
Well, how about that?!? It’s truly a credit to this Alpha that he was willing to forgive his former faggot. Will it work out? Who knows?
But the real story is this: it should never have been allowed to get to this point. Accept being a faggot and SERVE the Men who are claiming you!
Don’t take the chance Dany did with an amazing opportunity!