It was three years ago this week that I went into the hospital for my first week of continuous, 24-hours-a-day chemotherapy treatment for non-Hodgkin’s lymphoma of the throat.
Two weeks earlier I had been diagnosed with it and told I had less than two months to live.
The same week I went into the hospital Childish Gambino released “This Is America,” a revolutionary song and video blasting American violence and racial division.
As I recovered, the song’s spirit cling to me. In fact, several songs buoyed me during that darkest of times. They comforted me and inspired me during those long, lonely chemo nights.
Here are some others:
“Long And Happy Life” by Delta Rae
“The Climb” by Miley Cyrus
“In My Blood” by Shawn Mendes
“Delicate” by Taylor Swift
“Christopher” by Nakhane
“Just Like Heaven” by Nakhane
“Us” by James Bay
I can’t hear any of these songs without remembering the feeling of tubes in my chest, the hushed sounds of the sick in the hospital halls, the blinking lights of machinery designed to keep me alive … and awake.
But most of all these songs remind me of the profound feeling of coming back to glorious life that summer of 2018, resurrected into a new form more powerful and determined than the chrysalis of my former self.
These songs were the soundtrack of my rebirth. They will always hold a place very dear to me.