In terms of Hierarchy, faggots are the ones who must often make the most difficult choices. Sometimes they are choices like “should I permanently gape my asshole?” or “should I get flavored or unflavored lube?” or “should I suck off my boss for a promotion?” or other such trivialities.
But sometimes they are more serious.
My most recent difficult choice involved service. I was getting chewed out constantly by my last owner because my work schedule was constantly interrupting my service to him. Finally, after a furious tirade, he dismissed me. I then had a choice to make: quit the job or pause full-time service.
I chose the job. By that point I had been serving Men for twenty years, so it wasn’t like I hadn’t experienced the joys of service. But more importantly, I was involved in the rescue of Baby Boy by then, and my job was the only lifeline we had between success and failure of that desperate mission.
I chose wisely, and we had a happy ending. I regret nothing.
My brother Cody is faced with a similar moment of truth. Here’s what he wrote to me:
So I’m a faggot, and it has taken me a long time to truly accept that part of myself. I’ve always known I was submissive and as I got older i discovered all of the many-layered depths of the bdsm world but I was always seeking more. I was always drawn to the idea of the “houseboy” if that tells you anything.
I always tried to deny that part of myself because I was afraid of what it would mean if it got out, what type of person would that make me? I was concerned for my future because the field I work in it would not be perceived very well and I would lose my job. But recently I’ve been trying to “life my truth” as it were. It’s been freeing honestly.
I recently got out of a 4 year relationship with someone that i was engaged to, someone I truly love because I kept trying to deny my true self but it kept resurfacing in various ways. it’s been a difficult couple of months but I’m making it. Breaking up with this person was one of the hardest things I’ve gone through because i also consider this person to be my best friend and part but it helped me realize I can’t continue to hide.
Over the past couple of weeks, I’ve been conversing with an Alpha who lives in another state. He is incredible, I’ve never really engaged with an Alpha like Him before. He has this energy and power and He knows His place in the hierarchy and what He deserves, and from my experience with Him so far, I would definitely say He is a “Protector Alpha”. We’ve been talking about my moving in with Him to be his live in fag/slave which I have to admit fills me with both excitement and trepidation. I recognize this is an incredible opportunity to fulfill my purpose and serve an Alpha but I’m also worried about giving up myself in that way because I’ve never really served anyone like that before. But honestly, I think serving Him and making His life better would make me happy and fulfilled.
I recently had a conversation with my ex and he wants to try to work things out because we have this deep connection and we want to be in each other’s lives. It’s all gotten very confusing. I spoke with my Alpha about the whole situation and He has allowed me a few days to figure everything out, but He said that He believes I was born to serve and I shouldn’t try to deny that part of myself. He is incredibly wise and generous. He is right of course, but my ex has said that he wants to figure out if he can provide me with what I need as a submissive and if we can still be together in an open relationship.
Anyway, I feel like this email is getting away from me so to bring it all together, do you think it’s possible or faggots to have “normal” relationships with people? Do you think I should give up trying to make things work with this person I’ve had this relationship with for so long and serve my Master? I know you probably have any concrete answers since everyone and every situation is so different but any advice or insights you can provide would be really appreciated as I try to figure out everything.
Here’s the thing – we faggots often have these huge decisions because Alpha Males like to level ultimatums on us. It’s not a cruel thing … it’s just in the nature of Men to be decisive. When they want something, they either take it or demand that it be given to them.
Here’s how I answered Cody:
Thanks for this long and detailed message! The more info, the better!
To the point: this Master is the one who is going to give you what you truly need and desire as a faggot. I think it’s nice that your ex wants to TRY to fulfill these needs in you, but ultimately he is playing a role, right? He’s giving you what he thinks you want, not what HE IS.
Meanwhile, you have the real thing ready to take possession of you and own you properly, correctly.
As for your question about faggots and real relationships, yes we can have normal relationships with other people and other Men. But of course, we have priorities, too.
I hope this answers your intrinsic questions as you deal with this life-changing moment!
I know that it’s enticing to take the relationship, the security, the sense of home. But I do think this is a trap for faggots. We are simply not built for “happy family life” – our true needs run counter to that notion.
The other part of the equation involves realistic fulfillment. Faggots need to FEEL that they are truly the property of a Man. That they are owned. Fetish games and playtime cannot truly fulfill that basic need in a faggot.
Being a true faggot is serious business! It’s a life of serious sacrifice!
Be prepared to go all-in if you want to find fulfillment!