I use to think I was an alpha but recently I’ve been depressed. I don’t have the confidence I use too and finding fags has become impossible. I don’t know what to do
I’m sorry you’re struggling with this, Sir.
First of all, I firmly believe that Alphas are, like faggots, born not made. And as a naturally-born Alpha, you can’t just lose Alphahood as you grow older. It changes with the phases of your life and is applied differently at age 20 as opposed to age 40 or 50. Alphas like @natural-hung-bull found their Alphahood suddenly flourishing like never before in their forties. Everyone is different, so don’t compare your stage of development to any other Alpha, Sir.
First and foremost, it’s important to go to the doctor and make sure you’re healthy. Specifically, you should have your testosterone levels checked. This is a silent killer of mood, libido, and self-confidence in Men.
After that, you should get into the gym and start up a workout routine, Sir. I’m not saying that you should try to become a muscle stud, but working out is good for positive reinforcement and a constructive way to work out frustrations.
As far as finding faggots, well, I will say that this is probably the golden age of faggots, Sir. We are literally everywhere, dying to be used. Your trouble with faggots is likely a result of your confidence problem, and can be easily remedied once you make other corrections.
Like I said, Sir, you’re always going to be Alpha. That fire might not always burn as brightly as it once did, but it’s always there. Just add more fuel to it.