The Value Of Complete Worship

I love how the faggot got his own and the Alpha made no noise about it. He used his own cum to lube his Alpha for cleaning and that was hot. He wasn’t ordered to do it. He wasn’t punished for cumming. He didn’t ask for any permission. He got his own. He gave his all. This is how it works best–everyone gets the real deal and no one needs to rationalize their happy afterward. They feel actual satisfaction and not some headspace mindfuck of so-called deeper submission, ie pretending real hard that approval is enough when it can’t be or you wouldn’t endlessly pursue it. Enough means the hunger ends for now. The devotion can continue. Just not the horniness from constant prostate congestion. Reciprocity is awesome when it happens, but mutuality wins.

Side note, personal note–the main reason I became a switch is that it was woefully unsatisfying and hollow to be just a faggot who served and never came. It got tiresome meeting any and all guys to suck and never getting to jerk while doing it or getting fucked–and often being forbidden to do it which is the latest fashion; the whole “you don’t deserve” schtick used to beat bottoms into submissiveness.

I can enjoy chastity and long term, too, as long as I get fucked enough, it takes the edge off. But I am far from being able to feel greater pleasure from His enjoyment than I feel from my own. Reason being … I will never let go of internal reward in favor of external reward; I will only find the deepest satisfaction from my own approval, not anyone else’s. Like CastorDom says about faggots, regarding Alpha’s, you’re not my friend and I am not yours and while that might shock you, that I don’t think about you at all when I return to my life, I want you happy and safe and fulfilled, but I’m fine if I get mine and you do not get yours. That’s life. You don’t always get what you want … when someone else does. And at your expense. That’s just how the prostate spasms.